You know guys, I think I should open up a bit more to you. The past few years were rough. And I'm usually the type of person who will rather put on a smile and keep silent than worry anyone.
Leaving college with depression, two of my animals dying, shitty job and relationships drama in three long years... I had insane moods swings; I could barely control myself and didn't listen to myself... I said really bad things unwillingly. I fixed my medication when I noticed... too late. I’m exhausted... And now that my life is finally getting silent, I can’t help being wary. What’s next? It’s scary.
2014 was a huge fuck you to everyone. I almost left everything, cosplay mostly because social stuff. I just can’t when things get shitty and dramatic... Can't we all get along doing something we love? This is why people have trust issues. I’m used to be betrayed and lied to... when someone truly appreciates me I have the hardest time believing them. *Sigh* Got to carry on doing what I enjoy... life’s too short to mull over this. Stick with people that make their own opinion of you and understand human beings make mistakes. ‘Cause when you listen to someone talking about someone, reality is deformed by their opinions.
On another note... I just hope to be able to be more active like in the past now that all is over. I really had to take a step back from everything... After my surgery in some days, activity may still be a bit low for a month but right after I'll do everything I can to get back on track with friends, hobbies and life itself.
Please take care! I hope you all had wonderful holidays.